My Name is Sadness

Dear Free
My name is Sadness. I believe this way, because I have made an unforgivable mistake that will haunt me the rest of my life. As a child, I had a unstoppable drive to be successful. Today, I am a well renown account. I had my life all planned out. There was never any room in my thoughts for a husband, and children were nonessential in my world. I have traveled around the world, have a blooming career, and moreover, I have never wanted for romance. Now that I am older all these things appear unimportant. The travel has played-out, the career has burnt me out, and the need for romance is undesirable. I want to pour all the love I have into someone. I want to invest my finances into someone, and I want to cultivate a rewarding career into someone. I want that someone to be a child, my very own child. The problem is I am beyond my childbearing years. Never being able to watch my stomach grow, feel the heels of my unborn baby kick, and most of all, I will never experience the miracle of birthing a living being into the world. At times, I get so depressed I can't get out of bed, I go days without eating, and the doors of my business are closed more that open. What can I do to feel whole and complete?

Dear Sadness:
     Let me start out by saying, I will email you a list of therapist in your area to further help you process those pinned-up feelings. Seeking professional assistance will be an excellent path to follow. Now, let me commend you on sharing your story. I believe there are others that can connect with these feelings. As my response helps you on your journey (and I am fully persuaded it will), it will also help others. You said that you have a wealth of love to share. While biologically it may be too late to physically give birth, ( your disclosure), it is not too late to impart all that love into a child's life. Loving, caring, and kind people are needed in the world of children. There are so many children of all ages waiting/needing to be mentally, emotionally, financially, and spiritually embraced.  One behavior I work on and encourage others to work on is self-forgiveness. It is easy to blame self for what we deem as poor decisions, and/or horrible mistakes.   You see, not all mistakes are irreversible and not all poor decisions are engraved in stone. In fact, your life has turned out GREAT!. Why? Because, those mistakes, those poor decisions, those moments of sadness have prepared you for a journey of boundless love for a child you never perceived sharing your life.   There is a lesson for us all to learn and that lesson is take that same negative energy and use it to seek an alternative solution. There is a wonderful child in this huge world waiting for the deluge of love flowing from your heart.  All you have to do is seek and your will find. You will not be disappointed. There is an adoption agency waiting to hear from you.  Go and get your child! God bless you. Please keep me posted on your new expedition of motherhood. 
Blessings
Free

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